A few favorites from LookBook. I'm in New Jersey visiting family for Thanksgiving; primarily my grandmom. She was diagnosed with lung cancer a few weeks ago. I didn't consider the extent of her condition until I saw her. She's constantly coughing and wheezing(can't even walk through the grocery store without getting mildly winded), she's lost 14 pounds and not to mention her spirits are lowering with every passing hour. Can you blame her though? Between the lack of sleep, weekly doctor's appointments and overwhelming exhaustion, she's breaking. She is a strong woman and will get through this, that we are all confident in. I know she in nervous, that has been clearly conveyed, but I think in a way it is setting her mind at ease. Death is inevitable. She has been reminded of this for the past 20 years with the passing of my poppy, the majority of her friends, and all of her sisters, she is the last one left. She knows it's her time. I know it is to. Every time I lay down and pray I want to be selfish and beg for her automatic healing, but I know I can't. If it isn't her time God will sweep the tumor away and keep her with us longer, but if that isn't the case it is time to let her go. She misses my poppy. I pray that she won't suffer; she's not scared of dying, she's scared of the pain. I can't express my dislike of this whole lung cancer thing. Taking my dog and now my grandmom. Please keep her in your prayers. He will take care of this, this I am confident in, please just pray for Him to take the pain away. It will be a long, rough road for her, but ultimately this is where she's ready to be.
p.s.- New Year's resolution: REVAMP MY BLOG.
