uh-oh, I've been thinking again

verdict:
It was you. All along it was you. Not me.

Let me explain myself:
You know when you meet someone and that instant attraction is there? For me this is a very rare occurrence because I am SUPER picky, so when the opportunity arises I usually go for it. Anyways, then you start "talking"....and "talking"...and creating more and more small "talk" but you get no where, but you can't give up. You just can't. You feel as if there could be something there, and you continue to think about the person and become in love with the idea of an "us" but as hard as you try to come up with something clever to say that will catch that person's attention and take your relationship to the next level, nothing happens.

Well after 3 years of this back and forth, ongoing confusion there's something wrong with you, not me. I kept thinking it was me who was boring, or me who had nothing to bring to the relationship and me who wasn't good enough(not that you're not good enough-you're just not for me). I need someone who I can laugh with, sing with, cry with, stay up all night with, travel with, go fly a kite with, and experience life with. I can't describe how good it feels to say that. My best friends Lauren and Kristen have helped me realize this and I am so grateful to have such amazing inspiration in my life. This is such a dumb-girl-high-school thing to post, but I felt like maybe other girls had experienced it too and it was worth a post. Every now and then people need a good pep-talk or else we'll get lost in the confusion of life, the hustle and bustle of everyday and forget how truly beautiful, amazing and unique we all are. Don't ever forget that! Everyone is here for a reason. Everything happens for a reason. We all have something beautiful to contribute to the world, so don't let anything smother that. You should be with someone who inspires you to want to grow and bring all your talent alive into the world. Positivity is contagious. If you let your light shine, others will quickly catch on. If you're Christian, think of it like this: God intended for man and woman, man and man, woman and woman, whatever type of relationship you have, He intended it to be 2 people united as one to glorify Him together. Find the one who helps you do this. From stories I've heard, you'll just know. So cliche; I hope it's that easy.


bleh, I hope this isn't disgustingly cheesy to anyone. I get to thinking every once in a while. Sometimes I think I'd like to write a book, but I soon realize I have trouble finishing my homework...how would i finish a 200+ page book?! Now that that's out of my head and into the web I can finish studying for accounting. Test tomorrow! Wish me luck! xoxox